A Good Day

A little over a week since my 2^nd knee surgery and my knee is a lot better still waiting for insurance company to approve knee brace and then they can order it. Once I have the brace the doctor and others tell me I will be even better. But today was such a pretty day that I ventured out shopping, got a haircut and then to dinner at Vera’s for wonderful bowl of homemade Chicken and Dumplings with cornbread and salad. As we ate all we could think of is WOW Melissa would have wanted to be there as she LOVED her grandma Chicken & Dumplings. So I said what the heck and ate another bowl just for her knowing good and well that I didn’t need it. But I didn’t care because I was feeling good about the day and knowing Melissa would be happy for me to be doing better. I had already told myself that starting next week back on good eating habits and getting health. Michelle one of my BFF made me an excel spread sheet to help me keep track of my food intake, water and what little exercise I can do for now. I am so lucky to have her as she is an amazing friend. God has truly blessed me with great friends to help me in all sorts of way and that are truthful enough to tell me what I need and don’t need.  Tomorrow is suppose to be another beautiful day and after church I will be planting  an Angel Trumpet  and Spanish Lavender plants that my mom and Dottie gave me and will be praying that Trey’s dog will not try and dig them up. I will have my sweet husband to help me and enjoy the day with and it will be our turn to cook for Vera so we get some of Larry’s great grilled chicken. This is health so I will be off to a good start in getting health. If your reading this I would ask that you would say a prayer for God to give me the strength and whatever else I will need to eat like I should in order to be health and if you have a bible verse that would help send them my way as I need all the help I can get. Like always love you all to the moon and back.

Saying Goodbye to Chipper

Chipper and Copper Christmas 2010

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Today started out sleeping in late and walking into the living room to our little man Gavin voice saying I am sorry Nana for waking you up. Little did he know he was not the one to wake me up? His Trey and Mr. Warry took care of that an hour before with their discussion of having to put our 14 year old poodle dog (Chipper) to sleep. He was not in good health and we knew it was coming but you never want to have to make that decision. So we all agreed that it needed to be done however poor Larry had to be the one to take him to the vet. I am ok with it as I tell myself he is with Melissa and having a good time after all that was her dog thanks to her and Chelsea begging her daddy for him years ago. Love the dog but he sure could make a mess and cost us a pretty penny on new carpet and rugs. What do you do when your daughter is a daddy girl and between her and Chelsea there was no way of saying NO to those two? Our other little dog Cooper is walking around looking for him kind of sad. Once we worked through that we took Gavin outside to play with Trey dog Abby and boy did they have a blast together playing in the water and mud. I think he could have played outside with her all day and never get tired but it came time for him and mommy to go home so we hosed the mud off and came into the house. It was a lot of fun watching him play with Abby (black Lab)and now I am ending the day with ice back on my knee thinking wow Mother Day tomorrow and I am not able to see my mom. Last year we all had dinner together but this year everyone is all over the place so I will be home with just Larry as Trey has to work and Melissa is spending her second Mothers Day in heaven. I will miss her voice even more tomorrow but as always will take comfort in knowing she is with our Lord and Savior.

Happy Mother’s Day to all my family and friends love you all to the Moon and Back.

I want my nurse Melissa

Oh I know she was not a real nurse but she was my nurse and I thought I could get through this week and be ok. But I am not and I want her here with me to help me. I could always count on her when I was sick as she would be the one to take me for a MRI, X-rays and doctor appointments if Larry couldn’t or really didn’t have to miss work because she was always there to help out. Not to mention that she would wait on me hand and foot. And if I was in the hospital she was always with me and making sure I was treated like a queen. I am not saying I deserve to be treated like a queen what I am saying is I miss the hell out of my daughter and want her back and that cannot happen I know.  I have been in bed now 5 days and I guess that has given me time to think and she just keeps popping in my head a lot. I must be in the MAD state at this point in what people call the grieving process. Because I am here to tell you I could rip someone’s head off this week and poor Larry the greatest husband in the world has had to put up with me and my short temper. How on earth do I get past this as it is not fair to my family and friends or can anyone say how long it will last? I am told this is normal to have these feeling and it is ok and will pass. But is it really ok to be mad and who am I mad at? I sure don’t know I just know I am mad so if you have been in my path or may be put in my path before I work this out please forgive me. Another thing will I be judged by others for having these feeling when I am proud to say I am a Christian all I can say is I surely hope not.

Knee second day after surgery





Thank Goodness for my laptop and I Pod to get me through these long days.
Thank You Chelsea for the I Pod I have been playing alot of games.