Oh I know she was not a real nurse but she was my nurse and I thought I could get through this week and be ok. But I am not and I want her here with me to help me. I could always count on her when I was sick as she would be the one to take me for a MRI, X-rays and doctor appointments if Larry couldn’t or really didn’t have to miss work because she was always there to help out. Not to mention that she would wait on me hand and foot. And if I was in the hospital she was always with me and making sure I was treated like a queen. I am not saying I deserve to be treated like a queen what I am saying is I miss the hell out of my daughter and want her back and that cannot happen I know. I have been in bed now 5 days and I guess that has given me time to think and she just keeps popping in my head a lot. I must be in the MAD state at this point in what people call the grieving process. Because I am here to tell you I could rip someone’s head off this week and poor Larry the greatest husband in the world has had to put up with me and my short temper. How on earth do I get past this as it is not fair to my family and friends or can anyone say how long it will last? I am told this is normal to have these feeling and it is ok and will pass. But is it really ok to be mad and who am I mad at? I sure don’t know I just know I am mad so if you have been in my path or may be put in my path before I work this out please forgive me. Another thing will I be judged by others for having these feeling when I am proud to say I am a Christian all I can say is I surely hope not.
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| Knee second day after surgery |
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| Thank Goodness for my laptop and I Pod to get me through these long days. Thank You Chelsea for the I Pod I have been playing alot of games. |
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