March 1.2011

Tuesday and nothing ever changes miss one day at work and things don’t get done that should. Nothing like adding more stress to my life maybe next time I will go to work sick and spend most my day in Restroom but at least my work will get done in the turnaround time that it is suppose to  then I won’t  have to depend on my backup person.. I will just have to learn to give my job to God and let help me get through each day as well as the loss of Melissa. Which the two are so far apart it is not even funny but put the two together and I really feel like I am going to be put in a mental hospital . Guess I will miss work because I am not giving up my PTO day or I will for sure be in the loony bin as my Grandmother would say.  March 1^st already  and I remember this time last year Melissa barking orders for her Rodeo tickets she wanted her dad to get her. Being daddy little girl he came through with a lot of them. She and her friends went and that was great it help take her mind off missing Jon so much since he was in Iraq. We went with her, Leana and Jordan to hear Lady Antebellum which they were great, I was bad and got her a strawberry drink one week before she turned 21 I though her daddy would have a fit which he did but he helped her drink it. I am so glad that I did it; be right or wrong now I am glad I did. We have a chance to go back to the Rodeo again this year and I am just not sure I can do it. Other than her birthday that was the last outing we had with her before the accident  due to her going to school and all her homework she was doing or so she said don’t get me wrong I seen her the day before she came over for a short visit.  I am just not sure I can handle being there and I need to come to a decision and quick as we have two tickets to Miranda Lambert and Larry really likes her a lot but he said he would do whatever I wanted. I feel guilty as he always says whatever I want he is such a wonderful husband and great dad.