Rodeo 1 year ago today with Melissa March 19,2011

I know its been a while but just have not had the energy to do anything but work come home cook dinner and lay on the couch. I can not hardly stand to think what next week is going to bring and then a month after that. I have been given tons of advise on what I should do on Melissa 22nd birthday to help me get through it but none of it is what I want to do, all of it was good advise and it means a lot for my family and friends that care to try and help me out. So at this point the only thing I know for sure is that I will be putting Yellow Tulips on her grave. After that not sure Larry wants to go to Galveston for the day then meet Chelsea for dinner I don't know. Jon is out of town for work and has planned what he is going to do to get through the day. But I am sitting here after a long day of doing our taxes, running errands, going to the hospital to check on Leana, calling Stephanie to make sure she is OK and giving her what motherly advise I could. I think what I would really like to do on March 23 and April 23 is to find the man that was in such a hurry that he was weaving in and out of traffic on the feeder street of HWY 59 between Kingwood Dr. and Northpark. Who then tried to make Melissa move over by coming into her lane and scaring her which caused her to lose control of the car and hit a tree and died. Then if I could find him I would like to think I could be mean enough and beat the crap out of him but I know I am to little for that and it would not make God happy with me. I would settle for just asking him what on earth made you be in such a hurry you could endanger the life of my daughter and the other 4 passengers in your truck including 2 small children. And if they were his kids how would he feel if some idiot caused his child to die. Would anything he said make me feel better "NO" but at least he would have to face me and hopefully between my face and Melissa yellow little car up next to that tree he would have to find peace which would mean coming to know the Lord. Because you see I don't think he knows the Lord our God or he would not have fled the scene he would have stop to help. Did he sit out that morning to kill the love of my life I don't think so but he needs to man up and say hey here is what happen and I am sorry. People I beg you to be careful when driving and don't fight over a lane or anything your lives are to precious. Below are some pictures of my sweet baby girl I though I would share with you taken a year ago today.

Larry with his Baby Girl Melissa

Me and Melissa as she is trying to convince me to get her a drink 4 days before she turned 21

Melissa and her Cousin Jordan

Me, Melissa and Larry after the large Margartias (yes I bought it and we all shared)

Melissa at her apartment waiting for us to pick her up to go to the Rodeo

Melissa favorite Group Lady Antebellum
She sang the song "Need You Now"the whole
time Jon was gone she loved it and her daddy got
her the tickets. This was the last big event we were able
to have with her other than her last Birthday 4 days later

Leana and Jordan sharing our day with us.

 As tomorrow starts a new week for us please pray for our family and friends as we will need it to get through what we have been told will be the hardest month yet.
Love you all to the moon and back and please be safe when driving.